Summer is almost over...
Four more days and I'm on the jetplane again =/ This summer has been interesting. Maybe maybe a small turning point in my life. I've met more people this term than any other term. This includes people that I haven't met for years, people that used to be so close to me, people that inspired me, a lot of people. I've experienced ups, downs, and neither-up-nor-downs (which is the real down). I did a lot of things that I were on my medium-size to-do list. I left Karen - this was not on my to-do list. When people ask me did I break up with her, did she break up with me, or did we have a mutual break up I tell them I don't know and sometimes I said the latter one. I don't think I will regret but that doesn't mean I don't miss her. She meant and means a lot to me. I see her online every now and then but never really said hi or bye. People tell me that I should say Hi and Bye so that I will become a gentleman and I always answered with "thank you for your advice, I'll think about it" or something along the line.
I'm the type of guy that can fight a lot of things that comes but if something is too much for me to handle, I run - not away but pass. I run pass obstacles in life. I run fast and, according to most people, lovelessly. I run so fast that I forget, I run so fast that the wind almost seem to be synchronizing with me yet stinging me at the same time. If you do not know what I mean, try running in a stormy day, just before the rain drops and while the wind blows so hard from every direction. The sweat will soak you but yet you don't feel tired because the wind is telling you to run.
When the wind blows so hard at you and you are scared by the lighting what you think of first is to run home. Home is safe, home has everything you need. I have books I can read for days, I have music that I can play for and listen to for days, if I want I can go play golf and badminton for days. If it is thundering outside then I'm probably at home doing something I enjoy. Do I have everything I need in my castle?
And what is the difference between want and need? Which one do I want more? Which one do I need more.
Haha, I think everything I'm talking about these days is badminton/golf/movies/music. Is that getting boring? Is it boring if I tell you how much effort I put in when I run around the track? Running and not giving up, running and tasting blood in my throat. Is it boring if I tell you that when I hit a bad shot in golf I am perfectly Ok with it? Is it boring if I tell you that I've been trying to imitate Samuel L jackson's accent for days? Is it boring if I tell you that everytime I play jazz I feel happy and smooth. Is it ok to live a life like this?
Again,
do I need this?
do I want this?
Sagittarius (n.)
Centaur, half-man and half-horse, shooting an arrow. Chiron, wise and courageous tutor to Hercules, was wounded in a terrible accident by a poison-tipped arrow shot by Hercules. In response to his anguished pleas for mortality to end the pain, Zeus exalted Chiron to the sky. See constellation Sagitta.
http://hsci.cas.ou.edu/exhibits/exhibit.php?exbgrp=3&exbid=20&exbpg=97
Chiron decided to choose death over pain. First thing that came to mind was 'weakling'. Second thing that came to mind was 'it must've been painful'.
Now, rewind back to the first paragraph. Did I run pass karen or did I run away from her? Would anyone believe me if I say I don't know, I don't want to think about it, I just want to keep running? I don't plan to stop. Resting makes a person feel more tired, according to my coach.
Couple songs for individuals that still has those after-effects from breaking up.
Move along - The All-American Rejects
Let Go - M-Flo
Where'd you go - Fort Minor
Actually, this list kinda sucks, never mind.
Long post eh?
